I hadn't realized how far I have come from when I started writing until a conversation occurred. My father asked my partner how he felt about his bad habits; the same that I had except at a much worse point. My dad said that his habits are who he is and we all went quiet. Prior to that, my father asked me the same question, "how did I feel about his habits?" I told him that at this point in my life I don't like it but I don't care about it anymore. I've seen him, my mother, and friends do these habits and it has made me feel that this is the only normal I will ever have in life. With my partner, he has made me realize that I don't need that to be my normal and that I am safe from it.
He has brought me from those depths with his love and understanding. I don't want to put him on a pedestal but I am sure that if we hadn't started dating I would not be in the place I am today. He reminded me that I have been sober for almost two years. January, in fact, will be the anniversary of my sobriety. I never thought I would be able to say that after how long I was addicted to that lifestyle. A plus to this is that I can feel emotions very clearly. I don't have a fog that covers my mind when I start feeling things. The funny thing is now the only problem is that I need to create a filter for myself on how to properly handle and express these emotions effectively.
Well, I think that is all I wanted to share for this post. I hope one-day people will come to me and share how they have overcome things in their life. I just want to help people and let them know that they aren't alone and never will be.
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